Wistful
I went for a long walk yesterday. A few of the leaves are starting to turn red and the air was crisp. My favorite time of year is coming - so why the heck am I so emotional, sad summer is over? I mean, really? I like fall. I like school. The kids like school. And yet. I. am. being. that. Mom. The one I smugly denied I am. I am feeling a wee bit sad that in a week, both kids will be in school, forever.
Now, let's be clear: I'm not suggesting I must go procure another baby. (Breathe Greg.) This isn't baby lust. I like my babies from a distance these days. It just hit me yesterday that we are nearing the end of a chapter in our lives and I find this awesome freedom bittersweet.
So forgive me while I am weepy. I'm sure it will pass.
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Now, let's be clear: I'm not suggesting I must go procure another baby. (Breathe Greg.) This isn't baby lust. I like my babies from a distance these days. It just hit me yesterday that we are nearing the end of a chapter in our lives and I find this awesome freedom bittersweet.
So forgive me while I am weepy. I'm sure it will pass.
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Comments
I get it, Lisa. And I'm thinking of getting a cuddly, needy puppy.
One wonderful part of being a mom is knowing that you value spending time with your children, even when 80% of the time they bug the heck out of you. It's that 20% that keep us afloat.
Quite often, I'm at wits end and I just need 2 hours ALONE (INTJ!) to refresh and then my arms are open wide again for the kids. Think of the time they're at school as your "I" time. :-) Good luck, and I'll be just as wistful come 9/5 as well.
Good luck!