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Tuesday, August 28, 2007

Wistful

I went for a long walk yesterday. A few of the leaves are starting to turn red and the air was crisp. My favorite time of year is coming - so why the heck am I so emotional, sad summer is over? I mean, really? I like fall. I like school. The kids like school. And yet. I. am. being. that. Mom. The one I smugly denied I am. I am feeling a wee bit sad that in a week, both kids will be in school, forever.

Now, let's be clear: I'm not suggesting I must go procure another baby. (Breathe Greg.) This isn't baby lust. I like my babies from a distance these days. It just hit me yesterday that we are nearing the end of a chapter in our lives and I find this awesome freedom bittersweet.

So forgive me while I am weepy. I'm sure it will pass.

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6 comments:

Suzanne said...

I SO get it. I didn't know what to do with myself, so I decided to homeschool. Boo-yeah, I'm that selfish! (Just kidding, that wasn't the real reason...) But I, too, am recognizing the end of a certain life stage. My kids are big and independent. And that makes me happy and sad and freaked out and excited all at the same time.

I get it, Lisa. And I'm thinking of getting a cuddly, needy puppy.

Spagirl said...

Feel free to borrow my daughter anytime you desire!

Kimberly said...

I used to get those pangs...and when I did my husband got me a dog. With 2 Great Danes now I know to keep my fool mouth shut ;-)

kate said...

Be weepy, induldge in the wistfulness for a few days. Tt's big. it's huge. in the blink of an eye they are off and running.

Daisy said...

I am halfway with you -- and I feel your pain! My Ruby is going to FULL DAY Kindergarten on 9/5 and yes, it will be bittersweet. It's the beginning of the end I tell my hubby.

One wonderful part of being a mom is knowing that you value spending time with your children, even when 80% of the time they bug the heck out of you. It's that 20% that keep us afloat.

Quite often, I'm at wits end and I just need 2 hours ALONE (INTJ!) to refresh and then my arms are open wide again for the kids. Think of the time they're at school as your "I" time. :-) Good luck, and I'll be just as wistful come 9/5 as well.

Matthew said...

I'm with you. I have toddler twins and when both head off to kindergarten, to me it's going to signal a time in our lives that were so awesome and that I'll never see again.

Good luck!