Wednesday, August 19, 2009

while the heart breaks

The words came over me in a rush as my chest tightened and the tears fell. I sobbed the first of many shared sobs as what I counted as a dear family friend broke the news to me: He had asked my best friend for a divorce - left her - while I was swimming with turtles on what felt like a second honeymoon.

Days have passed and still, I walk around in a daze, watching my inner circle grieve in the wake of his decision, one I am certain he will come to regret. I feel duped, tricked. I look at their beautiful boys and weep.

I feel restless, of no use, while I stand here and watch and seethe and toss and turn and wish it just wasn't so.


Fantastic Forrest said...

Me too.

flutter said...

so sorry for everyone.

dkuroiwa said...

so sad.
life pretty much sucks the big one sometimes.
be strong.

Professor J said...

As Flutter said so well, I am sorry for everyone.

Tom said...

Whew. No consolation for that. Be Jesus to your friends.

stephanie (bad mom) said...


Glad we're together; I keep praying through my gritted teeth. I hope God's cool with that.

Sam said...

I know that daze and I wish that noone else ever had to feel it! I had a friend who would make the boys and me meals and help to keep the laundry caught up. Words can't express to her how she saved me and I hope that your friend has someone like that in her life too!

brandy101 said...

Its terrible.What a shock.

She is lucky to have a friend like you, though.

lapoflux said...

I hope everyone will be okay. Horrible situation.