While clearing the clutter (I say that like it's all done forever), I found evidence that I was once a go-getter, an overachiever. Cards filled with accolades that reassured me that my hard work was recognized. And I really needed it - I craved kudos.
I still do. But shortly after becoming a Mama, I found that Alexis wasn't impressed by my mad sense of humor or my test scores. Nope. No more glowing job reviews. She was colicky and despite all my very best efforts, for a couple of long months, she cried every day from about 2 pm until 7. Like clockwork. It was my first lesson in motherhood - I don't control anything. I never had. It was a rude awakening.
The pediatrician said it would come to pass, and sure enough, one day she stopped her afternoon shrieking and life was better.
In the years since, I have worked hard to be a competent mother. I blow it sometimes; sometimes I rock. I guess that will have to be enough.
Ms. Alice Bradley, of Finslippy and Wonderland, was featured as a Alpha Mom on GMA this morning. I haven't read her response to her big TV debut, but I thought she done good. Real good. I wasn't totally in love with the feeling I got from the segment - I have never once got the impression that Ms. Finslippy thought she was superior or trying to put undue pressure on other moms in her columns. Quite the contrary. She, in real, blog life comes across as humble and kind. (Yes, I know I act like I know her personally. Shut up. I like her.) She may be an Alpha Mom but I will gladly follow her class act.
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