Friday, September 04, 2009


I find myself with front row tickets to Heartbreak, the saddest show in town. I'm watching a family dissolve, up close and personal, and not just any: They are people I love and I find no comfort in philosophy or psychology.

I cry for my friend, and her boys, and my people, the community of friends that are family to me.

I cry easily and unexpectedly these days; I'm cracked, and fragile.

And when I stop sniffling, the joy is sweeter. It really is.


stephanie (bad mom) said...

You have gently said the things that are coming out of me like venom.

True though, that the sweets are sweeter when tasted through salty tears. But I would give that up for no more sadness.

Anonymous said...

I've also had those front row tickets to the saddest show in town. I took a hard look at my own family, and realized I had to change so that I would not be a participant in the show.

JCK said...

I am so very sorry, Lisa. It just sounds heartwrenching. I have been thinking of both you and Stephanie these last few weeks. Sending big hugs.

flutter said...

love you so much honey.

Lisa Wheeler Milton said...

Stephanie: Truthfully, my mind is filled with more venom than I know what to do with. Every post I write in my head is angry, and cutting.

I just don't know how to write those words without making our friend's world harder and I'm left sleepless at night because of it.

Rachael said...

as a party to some pretty serious marital destruction i can only say that time is healer for even the most wrenching of situations (and if i had to guess here, i bet someone has stepped out on someone and given your anger, probably the papa).. we live in a world where these ties are broken too easily... but we live in a world of so much beauty and tenderness.. thank you for sharing yours, lisa.

Madge said...

"cracked and fragile" that's how i've been feeling lately. is that what motherhood/middle age is all about?

i guess that's ok, 'cuz the joy really is sweeter.

hugs to you and your friends.

Cheri @ Blog This Mom! said...

Wow. I bow in the presence of your tenderness and spirit. This is big stuff and you summed it up and put it into perspective so eloquently.

I'm bookmarking this page.

Suzanne said...

I absolutely agree with Mr/Ms Anonymous up there. Having a front row seat (on more than one occasion) really makes you evaluate and adjust... and appreciate. Oh, how I appreciate.